day 14. dreams and childhood things.

I’m going to be real with you, it’s been a weird day. And for a Friday night, I’ve been real boring. Like, real boring.

Last night was one of those nights where you wake up every hour or so. Well, not you, it was me. Obvs.

I had a few weird dreams, but I really only remember one. I dreamed that I was looking for a second job because I need to save for NYC, so I went back to my first job and asked them if I could have a job working a few days a week. They said yes, but only after we (my old managers and I) walked around the store for a while. I made it very clear that I only wanted to do floor work and not be a cashier like I was last time I worked there, and they agreed. Then I realized that I only had 10 minutes to get to the job I currently have and that I was wearing jeans (aka not dress code), so I went to my store and bought a dress and went to work.

You know life is really sad when you dream about being late to your job in retail.

It was a good day, though. It’s funny how hard it is to have a bad day when you’re determined to have a good one, even when things are aligned against you.

And now I’m going to go finish watching this movie, where Starlite is far too sassy for his own good. You know what I’m talking about.

I’m really not looking forward to the day when the days don’t line up with the post numbers. AKA when January is over. That’s the good thing about WordPress – it counts all your posts for you, sooooo NBD. It’s going to be weird to have more than thirty posts, though. Thirty-one. I don’t even know how many days are in January, apparently.

PS Still four more spots in my Pay it Forward giveaway! Click here to enter.

day 13. paying it forward.

Unpopular opinion time. I’ve always been a big believer in signs. And since this is such a text-heavy post, I’m going to fill it with gifs. You know you love me.

Call it fate, call it destiny, call it whatever you want. I believe in signs. Another thing I believe in is the general zodiac. I know, cross yourselves. No, I don’t believe in horoscopes and I don’t believe that you should live your life by it. But I’ve known my whole life that I’m a Taurus, and the general descriptions of Taureans are me, pretty much to a tee. It’s kind of weird.

When I say I believe in the general zodiac, what I mean is that I don’t think God will lead me to anything that he doesn’t know I’m reading. Like, if I read something in my horoscope that I think could apply to my day, I take it as a sign from God. Because ultimately, he dictates everything, and pretty much I’m going to take his word on it. I don’t read my horoscope every day and I don’t take that much stock in it, but if I do happen to read it and find it applicable, I think it’s because I was meant to read it that day.

So when I found out yesterday that apparently the zodiac changed, I got more than a little huffy. Well, that’s not true. I got a little huffy and that was about it. Huffy enough to complain about it here and call it good. I don’t know what they’re thinking, calling me an Aries. No way, Jose. And then I read that this uprooting of everyone is nothing new and has to do with planetary positions or the sun or something. So I’m not going to really worry about it. Huffing = done. Wait. Well, whatever.

I don’t think anything happens out of coincidence. I just don’t. One of my main mottos is “everything happens for a reason.” You can’t honestly tell me that you look back on every moment in your life and think, “Man, that one thing was really weird and has had absolutely no bearing on my life and I learned absolutely nothing from it.” You learn from everything that happens to you, unexpected or not. And that makes you who you are.

I had coffee with one of my adult friends today, Katy. I’ve been having a lot of coffee lately, it would seem. Oh well. I certainly don’t hate it. And even as I typed out the words “adult friends,” I got a weird feeling. I know she probably won’t appreciate being called an adult friend, haha. By that I just mean that she isn’t in school. When we’re still in school, we’re in such a weird transitional place between legally being adults, but also still not quite functioning at 100% in society. Anyway. Sorry if I got a little word vomit on you there.

Katy’s been there for me for the past few months, listening to me talk about my problems and generally just being great. Which is why it was such a nice thing today that we spent the majority of our time today just talking about life – we talked about TV shows that we watch, books we’ve read, music we listen to, any fun plans for the next six months. And it was doubleplusgood nice when she told me that I seem a lot better than I did last time we talked. I can’t tell you how huge of a compliment that is to me right now. Because I do feel a lot better than last time we talked, and I feel much more together and prepared for life and that sort of thing.

And because I’m in a really good mood, I’m taking on a blogger challenge that’s been circulating the Internets as of this week, the Pay it Forward challenge. I don’t actually know if that’s what it’s called, but I’m doing mine based on Mary’s, and that’s what she called it, SO.

I promise to mail something homemade and fantastic to the first five bloggers to comment here. That’s right. Bloggers. I know that kicks some of you out, and I’m really sorry for that, but it’s the circulation of the idea that counts. If you comment here for that, you have to post it on your blog and continue the chain. Continue the chain or your true love will never find you and all of your family will die in a horrible wreck and you’ll never be happy again. That’s how those usually go, right? Kidding. Fashion blogger chain blogs are much better and much sweeter.

So this is the time for non-commenters to reveal themselves! Just leave me your email address and I’ll get in touch with you. If you’ve already posted the challenge on your blog, you’re definitely still welcome to enter mine! As long as the challenge is on your blog somewhere, I’m fine with it. I know I don’t have that many readers.

I’ve always been a big believer in signs. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how doing good for others will always make good come back to you. And that’s completely not why I’m doing this, really, it’s not. Doing good for others, even if it’s just mailing off some handmade goodies, is, for me, a sign that I’m moving forward. I’m not just thinking about myself. I can’t even begin to say how self-righteous that last sentence made me feel, and I’m sorry for that. But for where I’ve been for the last year, this is kind of a big deal.

Do you believe in signs? Destiny? Coincidence? Or are you a fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pantser, “pantser” for short? I’m not a pantser. I can’t. Too much uncertainty there. I like to know things. I guess that’s what makes me a Taurus. And I know that astrology is ridiculous, and not to put too much faith in horoscopes and all of that. But if you ever look up your sign and read the general description of your character, you might be surprised at how accurate it can be. Not about everything, but a lot of things. Daily horoscopes? Not so much. Eh.

I know, however, that I am most certainly not an Aries.

Only open to US people – sorry, but I’m just not equipped to send things overseas. As if I have any international readers, anyway. I actually just snorted at my presumption there. And if there aren’t five people who take me up on this, the better for those that do, right?

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